Do you know that feeling in the back of your mind, when you want a certain somebody to notice you, but, your morals and your bad luck create barriers that hinder the growth of expression of the same?
Yes. It's the same story everywhere. I guess the worst thing that could happen to a person(especially teenagers) is for them to develop a crush on someone. Infatuation is a curse of the worst kind. If you have the courage to approach the object of your desires and things go well and you hit it off, then infatuation is the best thing that could happen to you. But let's face the facts. How many of us can honestly say that we have always been successful in our dealings with lust and love? Unless you are Aphrodite and Cupid incarnate,I don't think anyone can claim sovereign victory over the hearts of others.
There could be two reasons for this. One,you can have only so many victories. After your winning streak runs out, you have to lose. Second,you want to win, but your inhibitions don't let you get past the secret sidelong glances and at the most, some incomprehensible stammering.There is of course the extreme case of you not having anything lovable about you and in turn being a repellent, instead of a turn on. But I truly believe that no one is that far gone bad.
When you have a crush, suddenly you start putting a lot of thought into your outfits and make up. I bet even scientists don't put in as much thought into their research. You see, the art of snaring the desired's mind lies in the physical; appearance. Let's face it. All this talk of falling for the inner qualities of a person is just a load of waffle. Inner qualities are tools that enhance the physical beauty - a fact most people fail to grasp. You see, there is a technique to looking beautiful. You need to put on only a certain amount of make up, which gives you glowing, ethereal look, but,it should also look as though you're not wearing make up. Tricky right? Even with clothes. You should wear something that flatters your body. It could be something traditional or something modern, But never overdo it.
OK,enough with the fashion advice. Back to the main point.When you have a crush on someone, you are always jumpy and on the edge. You are very alert. If you're not alert and the person of your dreams suddenly turns up, you jar awake and your heart gives an almighty thump,which literally catapults it into your mouth. Your nervous attention immediately shifts from your desired towards your heart, which threatens to pour out your mouth like vomit. The worst that could happen at this point is your dearie's looking at you. A myriad of thoughts run through your head. "Oh my, why is s/he looking at me? Does s/he like me? Do I have drool on my chin? Does s/he think I'm stupid? Does s/he like somebody else? Oh, I knew I shouldn't have put on this outfit." and so on. To add fuel to the already raging fire, if this person comes over and talks to you, oh dear God!!! Not only will be too preoccupied with your restless heart and your million thoughts, you will take a few moments to even realise that this person is talking to you, let alone process what they are saying. By the time you do realise what s/he is saying,it's too late and your desired leaves thinking you're either a stuck-up anti-social person or a retard. After this unfortunate meeting, your desired remains only that - your desire, something that is not likely to become a reality, unless a miracle happens.
Miracles as you all know, only happen when the good lord favours your prayers. But, I have always believed that one should not waste prayers for such frivolous things. After all, we are little fish in the big ocean. Sooner or later we will find someone who will fall in love with us. Hopefully by then your mental faculties will have gotten faster. If it hasn't, well, even God won't be able to help you.
Well, life is weird, Many times it so happens that the people we like are not interested in us and the one's who like us, haven't caught our interest. This brings things to a full circle, don't you think? No matter how many successes we have had, there is always a failure and no matter how many failures we have had, there is always a success. It's just that we never realise it and when we do, it will have already been too late.
AGNI.
